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"It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people..."

Fri, 24 May 2013 00:32:48 -0400

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It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven’t left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. Ha ha, funny. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you’re not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are.

A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn’t transition well to adult life, that you’d fall right through the cracks. And look at you now. La di da, it’s happening.

Your mother, your father, your grandparents: they all look at you like you’re some prized jewel and they tell you over and over again just how lucky you are to be young and have your whole life ahead of you. “Getting old ain’t for sissies,” your father tells you wearily.

You wish they’d stop saying these things to you because all it does is fill you with guilt and panic. All it does is remind you of how much you’re not taking advantage of your youth.

You want to kiss all kinds of different people, you want to wake up in a stranger’s bed maybe once or twice just to see if it feels good to feel nothing, you want to have a group of friends that feels like a tribe, a bonafide family. You want to go from one place to the next constantly and have your weekends feel like one long epic day. You want to dance to stupid music in your stupid room and have a nice job that doesn’t get in the way of living your life too much. You want to be less scared, less anxious, and more willing. Because if you’re closed off now, you can only imagine what you’ll be like later.

Every day you vow to change some aspect of your life and every day you fail. At this point, you’re starting to question your own power as a human being. As of right now, your fears have you beat. They’re the ones that are holding your twenties hostage.

Stop thinking that everyone is having more sex than you, that everyone has more friends than you, that everyone out is having more fun than you. Not because it’s not true (it might be!) but because that kind of thinking leaves you frozen. You’ve already spent enough time feeling like you’re stuck, like you’re watching your life fall through you like a fast dissolve and you’re unable to hold on to anything.

I don’t know if you ever get better. I don’t know if a person can just wake up one day and decide to be an active participant in their life. I’d like to think so. I’d like to think that people get better each and every day but that’s not really true. People get worse and it’s their stories that end up getting forgotten because we can’t stand an unhappy ending. The sick have to get better. Our normalcy depends upon it.

You have to value yourself. You have to want great things for your life. This sort of shit doesn’t happen overnight but it can and will happen if you want it.

Do you want it bad enough? Does the fear of being filled with regret in your thirties trump your fear of living today?

We shall see.

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- You’re Not Making The Most Of Your 20s by Ryan O’Connell (via calloway)

This speaks to me on all levels.

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I’m uncomfortable in how much I relate to this.
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“I come from this really small town near Nashville, Tennessee,...

Fri, 24 May 2013 00:19:06 -0400

“I come from this really small town near Nashville, Tennessee, where everything was la-di-da and normal.”

I liked her hair. I don’t know why everyone made such a big deal about it.

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Thu, 23 May 2013 23:56:19 -0400

hellogiggles: <3 Emma Stone

Thu, 23 May 2013 23:51:13 -0400

hellogiggles:

<3 Emma Stone

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Thu, 23 May 2013 23:17:02 -0400

"Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call. Go after her because that’s what you..."

Thu, 23 May 2013 23:13:22 -0400

“Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call. Go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign because it might never come. Don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.”

- Harvey Milk (via moaka)

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Thu, 23 May 2013 17:30:40 -0400

My Inner Monologue: When I'm Troubled, I Say Things:

Wed, 22 May 2013 22:03:20 -0400

My Inner Monologue: When I'm Troubled, I Say Things::

bornandbredlavahead:

I think it’s okay to let people go. I’m actually a firm believer in it. Most people don’t agree with letting people go because of connections they’ve had in the past, the moments they’ve shared or what have you. But I think that’s where people get lost. Let THEM go, don’t let the connections or…

"Let it heal you. Tell your mother. Let it heal you. Name yourself in a classroom. Let it heal you...."

Tue, 21 May 2013 00:19:15 -0400

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Let it heal you. Tell your mother.
Let it heal you. Name yourself in a classroom.
Let it heal you. Lie beside a man whose hands
you trust. Let him wrap his arms around you
and say “Baby, you’re not broken.”

We are more than the worst thing that’s ever
happened to us. All of us need to stop apologizing
for having been to hell and come back breathing.

Your bad dreams are battle scars.
What doesn’t kill you cuts fucking deep
but scars are just skin growing back
thicker when it heals.

Let it heal you. Try. To be honest. Open.
Even if some days that means saying,
“I still feel broken. I’m too beat down to even get
out of bed. But I have faith, yes, tomorrow
I will stand.”

I’ll relearn justice. I’ll love without fear.
I will be braver than some monster who
crawled out from under my bed. I swear,
I will not give him the satisfaction
of being the thing that breaks me.

”

- ‘Broken’ - Clementine von Radics. (via t-button)

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Mon, 20 May 2013 16:24:12 -0400

roseplated: CAN I INJECT THIS ALBUM INTO MY BLOODSTREAM

Mon, 20 May 2013 16:21:05 -0400

roseplated:

CAN I INJECT THIS ALBUM INTO MY BLOODSTREAM

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Mon, 20 May 2013 16:20:27 -0400

me: time for bed

Mon, 20 May 2013 16:20:11 -0400

me: time for bed
stomach: LET'S EAT 15 CHEESEBURGERS WITH ICE CREAM CAKE AND POTATO CHIPS WITH AN ENTIRE TACO BELL ON THE SIDE
brain: HEY REMEMBER ALL THOSE WORRIES, IDEAS, ASPIRATIONS AND OTHER ANXIOUS THOUGHTS WELL NOW YOU DO
muscles: I HURT FOR AN UNEXPLAINED REASON LIKE ARE YOU GROWING DO YOU HAVE A DISEASE LOL IDK HELP
skin: LET'S PLAY A GAME CALLED ARE YOU ITCHY OR DID A SPIDER EGG SACK JUST BIRTH ON YOU
ears: THERE'S A JET PLANE 500 MILES AWAY ALSO I THINK THE NEIGHBOR IS VACUUMING
eyes: WOW EVER NOTICE HOW IF YOU LOOK CLOSELY INTO PITCH BLACKNESS YOU CAN ALMOST SEE YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE
mouth: IT'S DEATH VALLEY UP IN HERE
body: HAVE FUN TOSSING AND TURNING FOR THE NEXT 2 HOURS
me: ok

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Mon, 20 May 2013 16:19:56 -0400

Fruitless Endeavors

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